I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Sending you hugs. The pain is devastating but it is the flipside of the great love you shared. Hope you will welcome another fur baby into your heart in the future.
Dozier You will be so so so missed! My heart is aching for you Naggi. You will see him again one day. Fly high our sweet sweet Dozier thank you for being here
How do you manage to spell both Nagi and Dozer’s names incorrectly?
I am so very sorry to hear about Dozer. It is so hard to lose someone we love so dearly. Sending peace and love from Michigan USA.
My heart is breaking. Lost my baby last year. Thinking so much of you.
I feel your heartbreak Nagi. Dozer knew he was loved and your constant presence will have given him comfort. The last thing he heard was the sound of the voice he loved the most. The last thing he felt was your loving embrace.
You will able to move on and I hope have room in your life for another dog.
Kia kaha
One of the ironies of life is that the most painful grief stems from the greatest of love. Know that Dozer’s spirit will always be with you and that you will always have his love. His love was unconditional in life and it continues on unabated and unconditional. His love was his first, his final, and his everlasting blessing to you. And yours to him.
Wow I cannot stop crying too,,I have been through this so many times with my own German Shepherds and around 30 cats,,the Love you share with your Loved animals is so special,,something that no human can give you that devoted Love,, as you get older the heartache is still there but bareable,,I learn’t especially with dogs to get a puppy when your current dog is older..Your older dog loves having a young playmate to enjoy and you to cuddle when it comes to this time,,I can see Dozer up there with Jesus running around with his new doggy friends chasing the butterflys and other beautiful creatures in Heaven,,he’s Renewed and forever Painfree ,,Loving Heaven ..Lots of Love and Hugs to you Nagi a beautiful women that we all have the privilege to know via the internet. Kind Wishes from Lynn in Christchurch New Zealand..
Remember your Dozer keep him in your heart he will always love you and inspire the goodness in many
So sorry for your loss it never feels right for our best friend to leave. You had an amazing life together we all miss him. Take care of yourself and do what you need to do to help recover.
My heart breaks for you ❤️❤️❤️
Dearest Nagi, I know how broken your heart is. I hope and pray that you are well soon. And I THANK YOU….for sharing Dozer with the world. Hugs xoxo
Deeply sorry for your loss and final goodbye. You blessed Dozer with the greatest gift of a life filled with pure love. You are an amazing mum, what a beautiful life Dozer lived, you were beside him every step of the way. Take care of yourself during this heartbreaking time and know you are never alone.
My deepest condolences Nagi. With tears in my eyes reading this.
Thankyou for sharing Dozer with us over the years. You have wonderful memories of him, and in time you can look back on your photos that made you so happy. RIP Dozer. 💙
I can’t stop crying as I wrote this. I am so so sorry. Dozer was such a sweet boy. I know it’s of little solace, but he had such a wonderful and full life with you. He was so loved by everyone and he knew how much you loved him. I am holding you in my thoughts and prayers. Dozer will be so missed. Hugs to you.
I am so sorry Nagi. This pain is awful and my heart breaks for you. Know that he loved you and brought so much joy all across the word. Sending you lots of hugs.
I am so sorry and understand as I have lost two beloved pets in the past year. Your letter – tribute was what many of us feel when we lose our babies. I personally feel that hear hears you and knows that you loved him and will someday see him again. It will take awhile but eventually you will smile instead of cry when you think or talk about Dozer. Much love to you.
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss of Dozer Nagi. As I write this wth tears rollings down my face, I feel your heartbreak asI too have a golden named Max who is 11 years old who I love more than anything. Big Big hugs your way. Rest in peace Dozer!!
I am crying, sweet Dozer!! I’m so sorry Nagi, you will see him again!
Awwww, I’m so sorry to hear about Dozer’s passing, Nagi. He will definitely be missed by many people worldwide. I’m in Ontario, Canada. Sending condolences and thanks. xoxo
Thinking of you, sorry for your loss Nagi. Sorry to hear about Dozer, it’s very hard losing your best friend, he was a highlight in all the stories. He will be sadly missed.Rest in peace Dozer xx