I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
Dearest Nagi, my heart goes out to you. The love you shared can never be loss. Dozer will always be your special furry four paws angel that will continue to walk alongside you in spirit, until you can both be together in the non physical world again. Take time for you, and look after yourself whilst you grieve this very special soul that you shared your life with. Hugs and love xx
Expected, but very sad nonetheless.
Grief is hard. X
We lost our guy just before the new year. Understand the pain and the empty feeling.
Nagi so sorry you had to say goodbye to your beautiful loving Dozer. You were so lucky to have each other. I am going to miss him after all these wonderful years at your side
Love and Hugs Nagixx
Nagi I am so so sorry for your loss and heartbreak. May Dozer be running around on rainbow bridge – pain free and like a puppy again. What a beautiful time you have had together for nearly 14 years! So many memories. It is devastating when life ends – but you will always feel his love. My heart goes out to you in your time of grief – I know personally how much it hurts. I followed Dozer as much as your recipe’s, and thankyou for sharing his final chapter. Please take care of yourself. The tears will eventually go away but there will always be a hole in your heart for beloved Dozer – and you absolutely need to take time to grieve. I’m sure he knew how lucky he was to have a beautiful mum like you. Sending love and strength as my tears pour out messaging you. xoxo
Hi Nagi, we feel your Pain but at the same time your Love, i Imagine Dozer is in Doggy Heaven Playing with my Dogs that i have lost over the Years. They are there waiting for us.
Lots of Hugs and Kisses to you. XXOO
Nagi, there are no words I can write that haven’t already been said, but I want you to know we are thinking of you and we are going to miss Dozer. He was such a happy boi! Hugs to you
A beautiful, poignant tribute to the Goodest Boy ever. I am sure Dozer will be with you in spirit for as long as you need him.
Big Love from the Hunter Valley, from myself and my cousin Raylee, who admire and hold you and Dozer in the greatest respect.
One day you will discover a tumble-weed of fur under the bed, long after he is gone and you will smile again. Until then, mend your breaking heart by sharing lots of stories celebrating the goofball that he was for 14 long years. So lucky he picked you to be his mum. Thank you for giving him such an amazing life!
Dear Nagi, I really feel your heartache. Please continue to visit all those amazing memories, and just remember that he only a thought away. He’ll be waiting for you on the other side of the rainbow 🌈 bridge. Sending you much love and comforting hugs. 🤗
Hi Nagi, you have made a great team and Dozer will forever be remembered. Rest in peace Dover. Nagi, please take heart…
My heart bleeds for you dear Nagi. To be quite honest, it was the thought of reading about Dozer that kept me clicking on your emails. I love your recipes of course, but I think I love seeing posts about him more. But seriously, this really saddens all of us your followers. Please take care of yourself. Grieve if you must but always be reminded of all the happiest times with Dozer and just the thought that he was very happy here on earth because he was extremely loved by you and everyone in the world. Please remember that everyone loves you too Nagi 🥲❤️
Rest in Peace Dozer ♥️
Nagi, no words can express what your going through, I wish I could be there to help. I lost my Sweetp about 2 years ago and I still miss her dearly. My prayers are with you.
I feel your pain too but if he could talk, he would say,
“Mum, it was Heaven here with you, I had the best dog life ever.
Cry f you must but remember me with love and smile for the joy I had as your boy. love Dozer
Nagi I am so sorry for your loss. I cry for you every time I think about you and that beautiful boy Dozer. I have not once looked at a recipe without first checking out Dozer’s link at the end. You two had a very beautiful bond. Px
My heart breaks for you and Dozer. I know how devastated you feel now. Please take good care of you now.
Dear Nagi, I’m so heartbroken for you, losing our fur babies is devastating. I loved following your stories with Dozer, he will forever be in your heart. Please take care and be gentle with yourself xx
Dear Nagi, my heart goes out to you and Dozer. It’s an enormous loss, but remember he will always be in your heart and looking down on you as your guardian angel
Dear Nagi, my heart also knows the ache and grief of losing your best friend. Dozer was a beautiful boy. Big hugs to you sweetheart. 💔