I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
I’m so sorry for your loss. You are so lucky to have had such unconditional love and you will miss Dozer every day but you will heal and eventually look back and smile without tears. Sending love.
Sending love and strength to you Nagi at this difficult time💔💔
Nagi I feel your pain here in Auckland NZ. Dozer was a huge part of your life and also ours vicariously through your cookbooks and videos. He will be sorely missed by all who follow you around the world.
I am really sad about your Dozer.
What a lovely dog. I loved him too, even though I never met him.
I know how devastating it is to lose a an animal that you are very close to.
I’m so very sorry and thinking of you.
I’m sobbing with you Nagi. Sending you lotsa 💕
I’m so sad for you Nagi and so sorry for your loss of Dozer. You were both inseparable. My love to you and your forever sweet Dozer. ❤️
I know you have a huge paw-shaped hole where your heart once was. It will be there. Always. But slowly, with time, it gets ‘fluffier’ around the edges. It won’t hurt as much and you will just be reminded he is with you. x
hi Nagi, i’m so so sorry to hear about your beautiful baby Dozer, it’s a heartbreaking time for you, we lost our 17yr old girl Billie last October, so i can completely understand you are devastated, stay strong, it does get easier, but we never ever forget ❤️
💔😢 my heart breaks for your loss Dear Nagi. So, so sorry and sad for you.
It doesn’t matter if it’s animals or people, love is love and saying goodbye is really hard.
Please know that none of your readers care about what you weigh, how you dress or what you look like, (and don’t believe you have any flaws), we’re all still behind you and want to thank you so much for sharing Dozer with us.
Take as much time as you need, we’ll still be here. xx
Dear Nagi,
My sincere condolences for the sad loss of Dozer.
It’s never easy to lose a friend, but it helps to know you gave him the best life possible.
My thoughts are with you during this difficult time. XXX
Rest in peace Dozer, a much loved dog ❤️
Nagi, they are a gift in our lives, all too short sometimes. I have been there, the love stays and the pain and sorrow leaves.
Love him forever
I’m crying, again. I cried when I found out his morning. Thank you for bringing Dozer into our lives Nagi. He was clearly the goodest boi and you were blessed to have each other. RIP Dozer.
My heart is breaking for you both 💔 x
I’m so very sorry for your loss, Nagi. May you find peace and comfort in all the memories you created together with Dozer xx
Dear Nagi,
Our Goldens are so special and the the hardest reality is that they don;t live long enough. We have said goodbye to 4 to date and they all are precious memories. Such a beautiful breed! We ;oved watching your journey with Dozer – something to treasure. Judy and David
Oh Nagi , oh we are all sobbing with you. My heart breaks for you. No one ever seemed to love a boy as much as you loved Dozer. What a lucky boy he was and he wouldn’t have traded a second of your time together either. I really am so sorry. I’m in the supermarket car park crying too ❤️💔❤️💔❤️🩹
I am so sorry for your loss
My heart aches for you..
Sending you all the love in the world ❤️
Love and many hugs