I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
So, so sorry to hear that. Thank you for posting. Remember all the good times – makes it easier. Thinking of you.
RIP Dozer boy
RIP Dozer.
My heart breaks for you Nagi. Losing a pet is no different than losing a family member. In time you will remember him with smiles not tears.
I am in tears here in the UK hugging my dog a little tighter this morning. My heart is breaking for you, this is the moment we all dread. Take time to grieve and remember all the good times, he is still there in your heart and always will be. xxxx
Having a cry with you this morning Nagi, he was so loved, you did all you could. Be kind on yourself take all the time you need to heal. His heart is still with yours xxxx
Nagi, my heart is broken as I read your final words about your lovely Dozer. We will not forget the many postings of your wonderful recipes with Dozer always, always at your side. He knew how much you loved him as much as we know. Rest Dozer in Peace. What a lovely pup you were❤️🥰🐾🙏😢💔. Love from Kelowna, BC 🇨🇦
So sorry for your loss Nagi, I hope that one day your heart will heal.. xxxx
Nagi, my thoughts are with you, I can’t think of anything to say to make you feel better and I’m sure at this early stage of grieving you don’t even want to feel better. But it will come. Until then be kind to yourself x
My dear Nagi. Our lives are never the same when we lose a part of our soul. I hope that you will be ok. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Dozer.
Nagi and Dozer you have had so many marvellous pawsome moments and shared happy tails. These times will be furever with you. Only Time will soften the pain. keep your most treasured memory close. Our dear pets are our furever friends and dozer was a lucky dog to have lived his life and have his happy tail with you always to be remembered.
I’m so happy you got to share all those years with him Nagi. You both lucked in.
I’m so so sorry ❤️ sending so much love to you.
I was shocked to see this post Nagi and my heart hurts for you. I’ve enjoyed all the years of following you and will continue to do so, not just for the recipes but for how REAL you are. Sending all my love from England x
So sorry to hear about Dozer my heart is with you x
Ahhhh Nagi, you have no idea how hopefully we have been following the journey of Dozer these last few weeks….our love and best wishes are winging their way to you from a very damp West Wales UK. Be strong and cherish the Memories of Dozer and rememer, time passes slower over the rainbow bridge and Dozer will look over his should in however many years time and you will be right behind him, as always!
Much love from Simon and Helen xx
My heart goes out to you. My husband and I had tears running down our face as we felt your pain. You and Dozer had an amazing life together and you will have so many wonderful memories. Thank you for sharing and hope you will be ok. Xx
Beautiful memories of a cherished boy 😢❤️
Hugs to you Nagi ❤️
You were the most amazing dog Mum that Dozer could have asked for. He was as blessed to have you, as you were to have him. Loss is devastating ! Thinking of you as you grieve and adapt to life without him xx.
So sorry for your loss, Nagi. Thanks for sharing so much of Dozer’s life with us. He was truly loved by you until the end.
Condolences to you Nagi on your loss
A beautiful dog, RIP Dozer x
Words are not enough. How I feel your searing pain in the loss of your beloved Dozer. I met him, patted him when you came to Belconnen. What a sweet, gentle soul. He lived the best of lives. He wanted for nothing. He had your love. What a lucky boy. While you now enter that horrible abyss that is grief, I hope you can draw some comfort in the knowledge that thousands of people from all around the world are with you in spirit. Most of us have been there too, having known that incredible bond that is shared between humans and that special dog that remains forever engraved in our hearts. If all the dogs in the world were loved, even if only half as much as we have loved ours, wouldn’t it be Heaven on Earth for dogs?! Bless you, Nagi, and rest in peace Dear Dozer.