I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
What a life he had with you! He was so loved. 🦮
Heartbroken for you Nagi. Dozer will be forever with you in your soul and what a fantastic life you had together. Please take care.
So sorry for your loss. It’s heartbreaking to say goodbye to our furry friends. His memory will be cherished x
So sorry Nagi. Our little children disguised in doggie clothing are never with us long enough. You’ll think you will never get a dog as good as this friend you have just said goodbye to nor will you be able to love another four legged fur buddy. But you will. Dozer will always be with you. You gave him a life of 14yrs of love.
Thinking of you ❤️🩹
As someone who has had to say good bye to a number of wonderful, special dogs (I am 79) i feel your pain but know you will, in time, reach a space where the wonderful memories will outweigh the current pain and sense of loss you now feel.
Thank you for sharing Dozer’s wonderful life with us.
I feel your pain Nagi, and have not stopped crying for Dozer. Their love for us, unconditional, you pain will ease and looking at photos will come and the smiles will return when you do. There are still foods I can’t eat 3 years after losing my GSD as they were our breakfast together. D0zer had a great life and now to the biggest beach ever!
We’ve been there so fully understand how you are feeling, our love and thoughts.
From Norfolk England
The dogs we have loved and lost leave their pawprints on our hearts. A lifetime of memories. Sending you love 💙
I am grieving with you Nagi. I am so sorry for your loss.
Nagi,
I’m crying with you! I’m praying for your comfort and peace. I’ve had to put two doggies to sleep and the pain is overwhelming!
Thank you for sharing Dozer with us. He will be missed!
Angel.
Dear Nagi, I am so very sorry that Dozer is gone and your heart aches. So many readers loved Dozer remotely. I am happy to admit that if the recipe did not grab me I would still scroll down to see what Dozer was up to. So many people adore you and your recipes and great work. Sending you so much love at this difficult time Nagi. Rest in peace Dozer xxx
So sorry for ypur loss. I really feel for you having losy my 16 year old boy lasy year. If it is any help I now have all the wonderful memories as the first tjought when I look at my screen saver not the sadness of losing him. It is slow but it does happen
I am very sorry that Dozer has passed, you gave him the best life and he rewarded you, you will miss him, accept the help of friends while you grieve.
So very sorry for your loss. Dozer was a much loved dog, a superstar. Thank you for sharing your adventures with us.Please be kind to yourself. Dozer knew how much you loved him. He will always be there, watching over you & sending his love. xx
Nagi, I am also hurting for you. I am so grateful that you had the support of the SASH team to ease your burden.
I feel they are also devastated at your loss as Dozer had become one of their family also. Gail
I am very sorry for your loss of Dozer. What a grand dog he was and what a loving bond you had with him. You looked after him beautifully, Nagi.
Dogs are very special to us. No words are exchanged, but all is communicated anyway.
Take good care, Nagi. You honoured your mate, Dozer, to his last breath. That’s all we can do to acknowledge their unconditional love. Feeling for you. Jennifer xxoo
So very sorry for your loss. Dozer was a much loved dog, a superstar. Thank you for sharing your adventures with us.Please be kind to yourself. Dozer knew how much you loved him. He will always be there, watching over you & sending his love. xx
So very sorry for your loss Nagi. Having 2 golden myself, I know how much love they give. Dozer will be greatly remember by all of us that follow your site. xxxx
I’m so sorry for your loss Nagi. May your many happy memories of your beloved Dozer bring you comfort. 💜
My heart breaks for you Nagi.
Gorgeous pics, you have some wonderful memorable pics there.
Night night Dozer! xxxx