I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
So sorry to hear of your loss, Nagi. Pets are such an important part of life and family, and the pain felt at their passing is every bit as real and as deep as for human family. May the many cherished memories of your Life with Dozer keep you warm and strong at this difficult time. Blessings and peace to you ❤️
I’m so very sorry for your loss Nagi. Sending you big healing hugs to get you through your difficult days. 💗
I am thinking of you u r in my thoughts Dozer was a beautiful boy inside and out,sending hugs and kisses xxxxx
So sorry for your loss Nagi! We all grew to love Dozer so much.
I also lost my fur baby Evee on the 5th Feb. She was 16 years 1 month and 12 days old. I feel your pain and tears
Donna,
I am so sorry to read this. My heart breaks for you.
Nagi, it’s now time for you to take a step back and grieve in peace
Go for the walks you enjoyed together
Gather up his toys and beds
Let the pain and sorrow sit and settle
He will always be with you, though in a different form
Live and love and know you are precious to many
The sorrow of loosing a beloved animal is like no other
Oh my god nagi I am so sorry for your loss. Dozer was such an adorable little baby. I am so sorry.
So very sorry for your loss Nagi.
Dozer picked his person to share his life with. He made an amazing choice.
This is the pain we must endure when we love so deeply. xxx ❤️🐾
So, so sorry for your very sad and very painful loss.
As you have been a big part of the lives of so many who love your books, your website, your generosity and caring – so has Dozer.
Thanks for sharing him with us as you have and wishing you all the very best as you mourn and eventually return to us who love all that you do.
Oh, Nagi, my heart breaks for you and the loss of dear Dozer. He will be missed. Thank you for sharing him with us, in the good times and the sad. You are both special. Best wishes Patriciaxx
Love lasts forever
I am so sorry Nagi, Dozer was so loved by all of us. I’m glad he had you and you had him for those 14 years, and every recipe we got to have a little bit of him as well ❤️🙏
Oh Nagi my heart ♥️ is broken for you as I know what you’re going through I’m sitting here crying as I’m writing this. You must remember that Dozer knew how much you loved him and him you but memories are wonderful things and you have almost 14 wonderful years of them . He will be in rainbow 🌈 bridge now not in any pain playing around with the other doggies until the day you two meet again . Sending you lots of love 💕 from Scotland and thinking of you at this hard, sad time xxx 🏴
My heart breaks for you ,your beautiful dozer is at peace ,you were the last eyes he looked into and he was content and loved in that moment.
I am broken-hearted for you Nagi. Dozer was such a beautiful boy. We have been where you are and it is not easy. Your heart will continue to break for some more time. Then one day you will remember Dozer and smile. He will be with you forever. We send our love and thoughts and strength. RIP Dozer. Thank you for the memories. I loved your role in recipetin 💔💘
Dear Nagi, I am so terribly sorry for your loss and pain. It’s been a joy following your and Dozer’s life together. You do not cry alone. Bless you.
Dear Nagi,
I am so sad to hear that Dozer has left us. I understand the yawning void which he has left in your life. It helped me a little to look at pictures of my Oscar but it’s not the same. Be brave, love and hugs, Jane
Oh sweetheart, I am so sorry. When my Aimee died in November, the box metaphor really helped. Please accept my condolences.
The “ball in a box” metaphor explains that grief over a dog’s death is like a box with a pain button and a ball inside. Initially, a large, uncontrollable ball hits the button constantly, causing intense, frequent pain. Over time, the ball shrinks, hitting the button less often, but the pain remains just as intense when it does.
Key Aspects of the Metaphor
The Box (Life): Represents your daily life, which continues despite the loss.
The Ball (Grief): Represents the pain of losing your pet, which changes in size over time.
The Button (Pain Triggers): Represents memories, sounds, or places that trigger overwhelming grief.
Initial Grief: The ball is huge, filling the box and constantly hitting the button, leading to constant, overwhelming sadness.
Long-Term Grief: The ball shrinks, meaning the button is hit less frequently, allowing for more “normal” days, though unexpected triggers can still cause sudden, intense pain.
This metaphor helps explain that while grief never truly disappears, it becomes more manageable over time.
I’m so sorry for your loss, I feel your pain, it’s so hard , I’ve lost my chow muffin, she was my life and I understand what you’re going through. Love Gail x
Dear Nagi. My heart is breaking for you over losing your beautiful fur baby Dozer. I cried when I found out. He was a gorgeous, entertaing & decerning food taster. Your heart will heal, but always ache. Sending you hugs & love. Hugs & love for Dozer
Thank you for sharing the life with Dozer with us. May his memories always warm your heart. OXOX
Nagi he knew exactly what you were wanting to say to him. Dogs don’t need actual words, they know, just know. I understand this pain and I hope you give yourself time. At some point you will look back with love and gain some joy even with the grief. He will always be your Dozer and always there in your soul. Take care xx