I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
My heart breaks for you 💔 They all leave such big unforgettable paw prints on our hearts. You had a wonderful life with a wonderful doggie Mum who adored you – now
Go sleep well beautiful Dozer 🌈💙x Lots of hugs Nagi from UK
My heart felt sympathy to you Nagi, no words will comfort your broken heart . I am thinking of you at this devastating time and sending love to you and your beautiful boy Dozer . Forever in our hearts ♥️
Oh Nagi, I feel your heavy heart. Here is a big hug from me to you. Rest in peace Dozer! We will miss you
I am so sorry you have felt this awful pain of losing a fur child 🙁 I know this feeling is awful but it will subside a little each day but Dozer will always be by your side in spirit. BLESS YOU DOZER run free with with all the other fur children run free and be happy.
I cried as you did Nagi. I know it hurts so much. I also know that in time the heartbreak with not feel as painful and in time you’ll look back at all the wonderful moments you and beloved Dozer shared. Sending lots of hugs and love.
My thoughts are with you. I understand how you are feeling. Dozer was very lucky to have you and you were very lucky to have had him.
Sorry 😢 to read at you missed your best friend. I know and have experienced how hard such a loss can cause. May his memory be a blessing and god luck to you and your family.
Nagi, I am so sorry to hear a bout Dozer. No words can dull the pain of losing your fur baby.
Dozer knew how much you loved you him and we appreciate you sharing his life with us. xxx
The first thing that came on my feed this was about the passing of Dozer.
I laid in bed and couldn’t stop crying.
It reminded me how much I miss my boy who passed nearly 13 yrs old at 14.
You and Dozer had a special love and you can be thankful that he picked you as his mummy.
He will always be your baby…
RIP beautiful boy 💙
Hi Nagi. so sorry for the loss and parting of Dozer
We do get really attached to our pets and it is so very hard to lose them. Just keep thinking about the so many good times you spent together and maybe in a few weeks or months you may think of taking on a new friend. cheers Ron. We have had 5 springer spaniels and loved them all, a few lived more than 15 years though they are more busy than a Lab or Retriever
So sorry to hear of your loss. I loved seeing pics of you giving Dozer treats. I still miss my dog that died 5 yrs ago so their memory remains. It’s all the beautiful unconditional love that they give us. Thank you so much for sharing 💜💜
They become such a huge part of your life and take away a massive chunk of your heart when they leave. It’s bever easy to say goodbye.Rest easy Dozer.😢
So so sad to hear that dear Dozer has crossed the Rainbow Bridge – take care Nagi – the mourning and healing is a slow process – let the tears flow ….sending love and strength
Nagi, .my heart is breaking. Dowser was a friend to us all & we can feel your pain. May Dowsers memory live on in you. You should feel proud that you gave him such a great life. R.I.P gorgeous Dowser.
Oh Nagi, Dozer would have loved your letter, but I know he already knew all you wanted to tell him. We will all miss Dozer, but none as much of you. Take your time and let those tears fall and fall and fall. The tears will eventually dry up but your love and memories will last forever x
So very sorry 🐾 We lost our beautiful Rocky in the same, awful way. Sending you a warm hug in the knowledge that your heart will heal, eventually, and you will be able to cherish your memories of darling Dozer without tears and pain ❤🐾❤
Dear Nagi, words can never be enough. All my love to you and your beautiful boy.
RIP dear Dozer. Magi, I know the pain you are going through at the moment. Been through it with several dogs. All of them cherished and remembered. Dozer will remain your faithful, cherished dog forever more. I have loved your posts with dozer.
Nagi, you are such an inspiration to us, both with your love for food and your precious boy, Dozer!
Praying for peace for you at this heartbreaking time. We understand and feel your loss.
It does get easier, but you will never forget your boy 🙏🏻
Loads of love and hugs 🐾
Dear Nagi,
When I come home from work and my dog and eight cats rush out to greet me, I tell myself that I will always try to love them the way you love Dozer.