I held his paw and slept by his side for 14 days in hospital. But it turned out, all the love in the world wasn’t enough to save him. Thus begins the final post on Life of Dozer.
My dearest Dozer,
You came into my life in my arms, holding you protectively. And after almost 14 years together, I held you in my arms protectively again as I said goodbye.
I was sobbing so hard, I forgot everything I wanted to say to you in our final moments together.
So I started writing this letter to you, to say all those things.
I wanted to reminisce about our wonderful times – the thousands of visits to the dog beach, all the wonderful food we sampled together, the cuddles, the neck-scratching-sessions, our road trips.
I wanted to thank you for spreading the joy that is you with readers all around the world, for happily coming along with me to meet readers at events, book signings, fund raisers, lunches, dinners, not to mention TV shows, photo shoots, and my gosh, we can’t forget our stint on Play School!
But as I sit here, typing away with tears streaming down my face, I realise that’s not what I want to say to you.
What I want to say is thank you.
Thank you for giving me your whole heart.
Thank you for giving me your unconditional loyalty.
Thank you for loving me just as I am, for all my flaws, for never caring what I weigh, what I wear, what I look like.
Thank you for always being there, my one constant through the good and bad times.
Thank you for making me smile, even on the hardest of days.
And thank you for trying so hard to stay with me as long as you could, fighting to heal until your very last day. I will never forget how deep you had to dig to find the strength for your rehab walk on our final morning together.
I know that one day, I will be able to look at photos of you again without sobbing. And I know all this pain I am feeling is because I loved you so fiercely and completely, and I wouldn’t trade it for a second I got to spend with you.
But right now, four days after saying goodbye, it feels like the heartbreak will never heal, like I will never smile again.
Rest in peace, my darling Dozer. I will never forget you, and I will never stop loving you.
Love,
Your mum xoxo
Thank you SASH
To the vets and nurses at the Small Animal Specialist Hospital (SASH),
Thank you for the extraordinary care, skill, and kindness you showed Dozer. Every moment, from the medical expertise to the gentle reassurance and cheering him on, meant more to me than I can say. Knowing he was in such capable, compassionate hands gave me comfort during the hardest days. I will always be deeply grateful for everything you did for my beautiful boy. – Nagi x
I am sobbing after reading this. Much love from a fellow dog mum in the UK. Like you say ‘it only hurts so much because of the amount of love you have for them’ RIP Dozer x
So sorry 💔
It has taken me 3 goes to read this, as It is just so sad my heart is breaking for you I’m so sorry for your loss. They love you so unconditionally and you were just the best mum to Dozer. RIP Dozer you will never be forgotten xx
Oh Nagi San. I feel your pain and I shed a few tears with you when I read your letter to Dozer. Dozer, thank you for the wonderful memories. Nagi San, we share your pain. Hugs and much love.
Very sad news Nagi, Dozer was the best and I really enjoyed sharing his life through your posts.
Thinking of you, love and deepest sympathy during this difficult time.
Thinking of you and Dozer ❤️🐾 two beautiful souls. You had the best life together and it showed, keep thinking that in the days ahead if you can despite the 💔. We lost our beautiful boy last year at 13 1/2 so understand what you’re going through – they are with you forever, imprinted in your heart 🐾
Dear Nagi, There aren’t words to convey to you how deeply sad I am at Dozer’s passing. The love you had for him, as evidenced in every email post and in your books, was a truly wonderful thing. I grieve with you, although I know I can never match the deep grief you are experiencing. But the joy Dozer gave to so many people via your site is his lasting legacy. Mark J
Oooh Nagi, I so feel for you…your loss is immense.. I understand. Time will allow you to accept & carry on…but never to forget
My heart breaks for you Nagi. The loss is one of the hardest things to go through but the beautiful memories will always be with you. I am so sorry for your loss as Dozer was your world. Thinking of you with love 💞
So sad for you. But lovely happy memories. Your in my prayers. ❤️❤️❤️
Such sad news. Dear boy thank you for sharing your adventures with us. You will be missed so much. Hugs to you Nagi do take care.
Nagi … it is so terribly difficult to convey to you the compassion in my heart for the suffering in yours.
My Sincere Condolences to you Nagi with the loss of your dear Dozer. He was so lucky to have you as his Mum and would have yearned for nothing during his lifetime. Truely loved and truely cared for and loved by so many around the world. Having been in your shoes 7 times, all i can say is take 1 day at a time, cherish all the good times and all the happiness you shared together. Dozer is up there watching over you and wondering what creation you are serving on the plate next. Big hugs for you Nagi. RIP Dozer and thank you for including us in you life journey. You will be missed but forever in our hearts you gorgeous boy. 💔🫶
Dear Nagi. You loved Dozer sooo much. And he loved you. It’s heartbreaking when they leave us. 💔 Bless you and Dozer. 💕🐕🦺
Nagi, losing a dear companion after many years is heart breaking and when it happens , no matter how many dogs you have owned and lost, it’s very hard to get over. What you did, in writing directly to Dozer, is what I did when I lost Max. Believe me, it is a great means of attaining closure. Be well.
Andrew
Dear Nagi.
We said goodbye to our beloved chihuahua X late last year after almost 14 wonderful years with her.
Nothing could have prepared us for such intense grief. Sending you love and strength. We all knew how much Dozer meant to you. Xx
So very, very sorry for you on your loss. It hurts so much when our furry family must leave us. Words can’t cover the sincere sympathy I have for you xx
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So sorry for your loss Nagi. Dozer was just beautiful.❤️ I have no words but know we are by your side in spirit.🫶
The best thing you could have done for Dozer (and did do) was to be by his side, holding his paw, as he passed from this earthly life! They break your heart but it is the price we pay for their unconditional love! RIP beautiful Dozer!! 💜❤️